I don't want to share the down, I'm not through it, I'm still sifting through feelings, and uncovering painful emotions; Today I want to share the Ups!
We all know that Andrew and I got engaged over a year ago on New Years Eve in front of so many people we love in a place we once felt was "home". What we don't all know is that some AMAZING people have taken the engagement plunge with us! There is so much love in the air it sometimes takes my breath away and most certainly gets me through the rougher days.
My Jedi Counsil of women and I, we've been chatting up a storm over love, wedding planning, and the bajillion details and emotions that come along with it. Since I became a fiancé, the future wife of an amazing man my life has been filled with more love than I ever thought possible. If someone tells you that being engaged is the same as dating, they either aren't in love with the person they're engaged to, or they are flat out lying to your face.
Being engaged is the BOMB.
Its feeling a whole different kind of love. You have wandered through the haunted forest of each other's past, climbed the mountain of uncertainty together, you stood atop staring into each other's eyes with a new respect and a greater love. Then you take each other's hands and plunge off the side of that mountain and enter this whole new realm of togetherness washing away the fears.
There's something about being engaged that makes a man dig into that piece of the relationship that connects two people. That "knowing" piece where we don't have to direct them, where they just "feel" it and make us feel better.
...and in turn you become even closer when that moment has passed and you realize that they gently held your hand and stood softly beside you making sure you knew you weren't alone without saying it.
This is that feeling of love and togetherness that makes a woman really aware that the decision to love, honor, cherish, and spend the rest of her life with this one man, her best friend, was the best decision she ever made.
I've watched friends get married, and I've watched their relationships take on this "team us" feeling.
I LOVE that feeling!!!
I love knowing that these girls -who are my whole world- are being taken care of by a man who loves them more than he can find words to tell; I love knowing their hearts are protected, and that each time he looks at her he sees the quirky beauty that makes him crazy for her and he falls all over again.
Have I girled this up enough for you?? What can I say, I am a hopeless romantic!
I can't keep my eyes dry when the love of the two people in the center of that dance floor radiates out and engulfs each friend and family member who has cleared there schedule to be there to celebrate this crazy love.
This world is crazy, your life and everything you own can be ripped out from underneath you, swallowed by an ocean (oh wait that's me LOL) but having your silent partner, your best friend other half person that you can't breathe without holding your hand.....suddenly its not so dark when all the lights have gone out.
